Not a sign of weakness…

“Guys, it looks like MC cried last night!” one of my classmates commented as I arrive in school one morning. Everyone got so curious and surprised for my popping eyelids. They hypothesized a lot of probable reasons why I cried. They even gave some fumy ones. Just like, I was scolded by my mom because of cooking rice without water or using laundry water for it. I even got a joke for myself and had an alibi of cooking rice pops or ampao instead of the normal one.
Honestly, I really don’t know the exact reason why tears fell from my eyes. Maybe it just fell. Or maybe I was just dramatizing a scene in a soap opera.
As I can remember, I was teary eyed when I watched Princess Hours, a Korean soap opera in Channel 3. I think I was helpless when I saw Janel’s father crying, missing his only daughter. Maybe I was just overreacting then. But as the night got deeper, a lot of things approached my mind. Like missing my father and sister, the fact that I’m leaving UP very soon, and thanking God. Maybe these things that entered my mind tickled my emotion bone and made me cry.
Crying is somewhat a way of emitting all the sadness and joy inside me. I was having some mixed emotions then. My tears were a mixture of grief and joy.
My unhappy tears were caused by the truth that I miss my father and sister. They are both working in the Middle East. They wanted us to experience a relief from poverty. With their sacrifices, I was evenly motivated to do well in school. I want to pay them back their sweat they have shed for my sake. Though I miss them, I just have to trust God. I know that he will take care of them and make them safe.
Upon knowing the fact that I have to leave UP makes me sad once in a while. If I’ll be able to graduate this year, leaving my second home would be hard for me. It’s like a part of me will never left this school. The school where I gained my esteem, confidence, and everything that made me someone. Most of all, it is where I met my friends who became a part of my life.
Thinking about everything that God has done for us, I just can’t help but cry. I’m so thankful for my life, for all the problems that make me strong, for blessings, and for every single element that comprises me. God is so great that my simple gratitude is not enough to thank him.
Each day, all of us have been busy with our work, studies, and other things that occupy us. Though how busy we are, we must not forget to stop once in a while. Let us give ourselves some time to listen to the voices within us. Don’t forget to pray and thank God for he has done for us.
Bunches of tear jerker may surround us. If you feel to cry, why not let go of those tear drops. Crying may be a way to release tension, right? Crying is not a sign of weakness, but of knowing it and dropping it off.