I was too shy then...

“aayy, mauwaw ko”, this is always my line ever since when I was still a toddler. Whatever things that need to face the public, I always deny that request. I was just too shy.
My Ate always hates me for my shyness. Whenever she wanted me to face someone or the public, I tend to hide and never to show up. I was just too shy then.
When there are gatherings, I would just stay at the corner and not minding to mingle with others. I don’t even talk that much. Like in conversations, what I prefer to answer are the yes-no questions only. I was just too shy then.
Time passes by and I have to leave my elementary years. Of course, I applied in high school like UP and Cebu City National Science High School. Other than written exams, there was also an oral exam or an interview. I really find it hard not to be nervous during those times. I cannot calm myself. I even got a low score in the oral exam in Science High School. This step towards high school made me reflect about my shyness and inferiority. All I can say to myself is this, “Mulambo kaha ko ani kung sige lang ko ug kauwaw?” or “Will I be successful if I would be shy all the time?”
The next step to these interviews is my entrance to a new environment, high school. In this matter, I choose to study in UP. My life really changed a lot as I entered UP.
To be shy is a no-no in UP. There are various activities that required full confidence to face the public. In my first year, there were orations, declamations, and circle stories. In later years, these activities evolved into debates, impromptu speeches, poem recitals, role plays and speech choirs. I can really say that my shyness has no room in this school.
One step that I have thought to lessen my shyness is to be a CWTS officer. So, I applied as one. Luckily, I was accepted. And now, my step towards confidence is getting closer everyday. Every Fridays as an officer made my confidence level go higher a little bit.
I realized that there is nothing wrong with speaking to the public. Criticisms may not be bad as you think. If you have done some mistakes, don’t ever attempt to commit suicide. Instead, try to do it better the next time.
Though currently, I am still shy, but somehow, my confidence level rose once in a while. I thought that shyness can lead you to nothing. Be confident and do not fear to have mistakes. We do not know, your confidence might lead you closer to your dreams. Raise your chin up and don’t always look at the top or below. Be confident! Soar high and pursue your dreams! Never give and never surrender. Reach for your goals, dreams, and aspirations and do not let shyness be a hindrance to your success.